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I'm Lilian, Call me Lili. I'm just a teenage girl trying to lose weight and change the way I see myself. This blog is mainly like a diary. I will post to express myself and let things out, and maybe help other girls in the process, and gain help from others. <3

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Monday, June 7, 2010

Music is an exercise buddy.

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"-according to scientific principles, music can enhance physical endurance by 15% and help the exercisers to derive much more pleasure from the task.

One significant new finding is that music can help exercisers to feel more positive even when they are working out at a very high intensity and are close to physical exhaustion.

The researchers believe that the effects of music on mood opens up the possibility that it can be used to improve compliance with exercise programme, therefore helping people achieve their long-term health and fitness goals."

What kind of music do you listen to when you exercise? Comment and leave your top picks! ;D


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Nightmares can turn into reality

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All I can remember about a dream I had last night was that i was back to weighing 180. Crazy. Scary? Ugh maybe it's a warning, because I've been eating things I shouldn't, and alot of it. Oh boy, I'm pretty sure I've gained back a few pounds.
Later on tonight I will definitely go out and walk, I just hope it doesn't rain.

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Changing your state of mind

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You are what you see yourself to be.
I used to get so down about my weight so much, it was overwhelming.
I look back now to the year before and the one before that and I see that I may not have changed so much physically, but I have changed mentally.
I haven't cried or been depressed this year at all because of my weight, and I think thats a big acomplishment for me and anyone else who is able to reach this point in their life where they accept themselves and stop putting themselves down. I think that this is an important part of any persons weight loss process. Instead of looking at yourself in the mirror and telling yourself how fat you are and crying, you should take a deep breath, smile and motivate yourself to excercise, because you won't lose weight by crying and putting yourself down will just make it harder.
I understand very well that it's not easy to do this, but if your just a little willing to try it, whenever you pass by a mirror, don't look at something negative, make a silly face or pose and tell yourself that you will lose weight and be more beautiful than you already are. This may sound cheesy (and i used to somewhat think the same) but just TRY IT!

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Saturday, May 29, 2010

Woo!

So a few days ago I went to the doctor's for a check up, and they measured me and weighed me, you know, all that good stuff. I was told I weigh 169 and I'm like "Hell yeah man!" So happy since I had been working out more the past week. I was all the more encouraged when the doctor checked my pulse and he said that he could tell I had been doing some excercise and that it was very good and I should definitely continue.
That made my day, and a few people have complimented me so I've been so happy about that. I need to lose at least 10 more pounds for now, before this big event I have coming up this summer.
Lets just hope I can resist the delicious 3musketeers and milkyway bars sitting in my pantry.

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Saturday, May 1, 2010

Fail

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This morning I was supposed to start a fast.
But then I had two tortillas with cheese and turkey...after having a bowl of cereal
hough I haven't weighed myself, I know that i've gone back up to 178. Maybe even gone a bit past that. sheesh.
This doesn't bring me down though.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Blah

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I've been so busy lately, filled with work, testing and such things that i've had no time to even check my blog or excercise. -tear-
I'm afraid that I may have gained back a few pounds, after going down to 171.
I tried during my spring break to get up at 6 am to go for a jog...but I never imagined it'd be so hard. The first day I woke up and said, ok it's raining so I can't go out, but the following days, I kept waking up and going back to sleep. Ugh, fail. It's even harder to wake up at 5 am to go jog befor school, I just can't. I decided that I'm going to try waking up at 6 am just on the weekends and as soon as I'm done with all this busyness and important work, I'll get back to walking after I get home from school. I really wanted to have lost at least 20 pounds for this even coming up...but that didn't happen. It's all good though, I'm not going to hate myself...as much as I feel like it. I'm going to try doing some excercises in my room every night before going to bed. It'll at least clear my concious, haha.

I appreciate everyone whos following my blog and commenting, thank you guys for your support. I love you all.

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Sunday, March 21, 2010

To sum it up.

I was really hoping to get some comments and advice on my last post, but nothing yet.

Maybe it was just so long that it made you not want to read it.
I understand, sometimes I do this too.

Well, basically my question was if you think it would be a good idea to go out and excercise int he morning before school? and how I can motivate myself to wake up at that time.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Help

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Well, again I haven't posted in a while, I've just had so much to do. Blah.
I haven't had time to excerxise either and this scares me because I feel that I may have gained back atleast some of the weight that I lost, even if it wasn't much. My mom even said so. -tear- haha kidding, well I won't let that bring me down.


So there's something I've thought about before but never enough to really decide to do it. I'd just really like to try excercising before school. Just going for a walk/jog. Though I'm supposed to wake up around 6:00 am for school and catch my bus at 6:40...But i really wasn't to try. I searched this up and found that it's a good thing to do because It'll give you more energy throughout the day, and you'll be burning of fat instead of carbs that you ate during the day. But I don't know what time i should wake up for it...I really want to do this right now too, I haven't gone to bed yet thinking about this, and I had to post. Maybe if I wake up around 5:00 am walk/jog until 5:30-ish ...then I'd have to shower, Ugh but I'd have to wash my hair, and I don't want to go to school with wet hair because when it dries it's all floofy and wierd.

But I don't know, I think it would be worth It, if it's going to make me feel energetic during the day I'd rather that. Lately I've been feeling somewhat crappier in school, because I just put whatever on, and though I look decent, and everytime I walk to my next class I just think to myself, I don't care what anyone sees me as right now, physically I mean, This is how I am for now, I can't change from one day to another, so right now I don't care, I just want to get through the day and Next year will be different, because I'm trying, even if sometimes I can't try hard enough, I'm not going to let this year and this summer pass by again with me being the same and not reaching my weight loss goal.

I've had alot in mind lately, I have so much to say, for the first time I've felt really confused with myself and what I'm doing with my life. I kinda laughed because It's something you usually hear in some teen movie or novel right? hah.

I'm just trying to get things organized, in my head, in school,spiritualy. But the problem is I don't even know where to start. I wish I could just let go, leave it all to the will of God, whom I believe in strongly. But that I don't even know how to do.


Great, I completely forgot It was raining...Well I'm going to set up my alarm for 4:55 anyways, if it's still raining by then I guess I won't go...of course.
And If I do, please pray I don't get Jumped or anything bad along those lines.

I hope you'll understand everything I've said, even if it doesn't quite make sense, right now I could care less, I;m just saying it all as I think.

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