Links, Links, Links.

Im going to start adding some links of sites that i find helpful, articles I come across and anything else that relates to weight loss etc.

http://sweetunderneath.com/stop-muffin-top.htm http://sweat365.com/blog/2008/06/14/top-5-ways-to-avoid-the-muffin-top/ ( the life savers video in this page is soooo funny and cute, hahaha )

http://www.webmd.com/diet/features/teen-weight-loss-secrets

Thinspiration video

185, Please no.

Last night I had a nightmare, that I weighed 185.

I haven't weighed myself in a while, and recently i haven't been taking care of myself.

I hope thats not what i really weigh.

Yesterday my mom took me to get my hair done. It was really nice of her.

It made me feel good to get something done to my hair. I layered it and dyed it blonde.

It look pretty nice. I had been feeling down about stuff, including my weight of course, and spending time with my mom like that cheered me up.

My dad is coming down to visit us in 2 days. I'm really excited to see him. I haven't seen him in over two months since he moved up to Ohio.

My mom bought me these weight loss pills. They are supposed to help my metabolism and I just have to drink a lot of water. Her friends daughter lost 60 pounds with them. So I thought they were worth trying, i really hope it works. Since were on break now I thought it be great to start exercising again. I finally have time to do that.

My sister is also coming down for Christmas with her husband. Shes pregnant, and my mom got really excited and did a lot of shopping. Oh boy.

I haven't been on here for a while, but I'll be back on everyday, posting stuff, and sharing/ searching for motivation.

Hope your all doing well.

Pretty ugly

I feel so ugly.

I hate trying to look my best.

Thinking that I look good in my favorite outfit, that I maybe look a bit thinner.

Confident.

It's all bullshit.

My mind lies to me.

I've been seeing pictures and videos of myself lately and I hate what I see.

My parents tell me I'm pretty, and that if I lost weight I'd be prettier.

I hate my friends sometimes because they tell me I'm not fat at all.

Fucking hate them for that, because they're either blind of lieing to me, and since it's obvious that they can see just fine, it means that they are lieing. Just fucking tell me the truth.

I don't think I'm pretty at all. Sure people tell me I have pretty eyes, and I believe that.

I just wish my eyes were all everyone saw.

This time Baby

Hey, so lately not much has happened. I'm still at around 170. I just can't seem to get myself to go out and excercise after school like I used to. So much school work. I need to get back into being motivated, I think thats it. I lost my motivation.

Anyways, I'm also trying to eat better. I saw a video, which I can't find anymore) where this girl was explaining her diet plan. Basicaly she started out replacing all drinks with water. So, im thinking, okay let me do that for two weeks. Just drinking water instead of soda and juice. Except maybe orange juice in the morning. Then she continues that but after those two weeks she starts to not eat starchy foods. So after two weeks I will keep just drinking water and then try not to eat any bread, especially, and only eat special K cereal. I think I will also make my own plan, for after another two weeks I'll take away foods that are unhealthy, depeding on what my mom cooks and what not.

But I really need to go out and excercise, I really feel like Im wasting each day when I don't go out and ride my bike or walk. When I do go out, I feel so complete. I love that feeling.

Thinspirations.

Before and After

(This isn't me) But that's pretty much where I am, at 170, and I want to go down to 125.

ugh, don't we all wish we were there already.

Maybe if I repeat to myself like I always do, "There's a reason for everything", I won't feel so bad.

But what's the reason? Maybe God is on my dad's side and I can't lose weight during high school or else all the boys will come prowling at our door. This is actually something my parents have said, not in those exact words, but something along those lines. Haha.

By the way, I used to own that shirt she has on the left. Just saying.

hm.

Once again.

Kay, so school started and I never managed to lose all the weight I wanted to. I'm pretty much the same. I felt the same, and thought I looked the same. Sure I was a bit thinner, enough that my double chin didn't stand out so much, but no big change. I think I had my hopes up to high, even if had exercised everyday, I don't think I would have lost all of my weight. The lowest I went was 164. Unfortunately, a few weeks before school started I found myself not exercising anymore and not watching what I ate. Thus I am back up to 170. Ugh. It's okay though, not going to beat myself up for it. I'm going to start exercising and eating well again, I am very motivated right now, so it'll all be fine.